I am overcome with fear. I went from feeling good and having confidence with what I’m doing with this website. On the MacBook Air I am using Elementor for adding recent pictures. Then I try to look at the post on my iPad and there’s no photos, same with my laptop.

I was so confident starting the Biography pages but there is no title and I don’t know how to add one.

Now onto the Christmas ball ornament wreath that’s been sitting on my desk for a month. During my short confidence spurt I tried one more time and if it didn’t work I would put it away. I had bought styrofoam wreaths and started gluing the balls on. Yea, it worked! I got 6 balls glued on and noticed they were ridiculously crooked.

My friend Mary makes these beautiful beaded bracelets that say, “fuck Trump” in Morse code. I asked her to teach me how to make and she took the time to come to my house and teach me. I’m so afraid of screwing up, I haven’t touched it since she was here.

So what do I decide to do? Nothing of course. That’s what I do. The Cancer crab, that is me, crawls back into my shell, projects left undone.

I recently started going to a therapist. Two visits down. There’s so much to unravel, as usual, I’m all over the place. Right now focusing on my “marriage.” Investigating ways I might be able to leave. This is the cause of my feeling stuck that reverberates in everything I do.