5/26
Not a good day, (see gardening). Over the last 2 days I haven’t been able to physically accomplish what I wanted. So I came inside and took out my adult coloring books and spent the rest of the afternoon “burying my brain”. That’s what I call what happens to me when I get depressed. Another way would be playing computer games for hours. This way I don’t think about my frustrations. It is never doing anything productive, for fear of not being able to start something else and fail.
One day I took out all my broken jewelry, most just needed links put in. I got tweezers, needle nose pliers and it should have taken 10 minutes. I couldn’t even do the easiest fix! My hands are basically numb all the time and I couldn’t hold onto the small links. I tried 2 different times for about 20 minutes before just giving up. Time to bury the brain.