5/8/20
I received a catalog today. A clothing catalog, (I receive ALOT of catalogs and magazines!)
Anyway, I saw a few things I really like and would love to order.
BUT have you ever looked at clothes in a catalog and loved things BUT again, they were for a former you!
For 30 years I was a size 6. Now at 61, with MS, I wear a size 8/10, with a gut that seems to keep growing and thighs right behind, (another story for another time).
My point is, do you ever buy for a body you no longer have?
I think this is the first time I’ve really realized that what’s in the picture ISN’T going to look that way on me.
I have lots of clothes in my closet that I’ve bought thinking they’d look a certain way and try on at home and say “Whoa, it’s not me anymore!” When you shop knowing how things will fit for 30 years, it’s been hard to face reality. I think I’ll get back to that size again, has me wondering, “can I really?” (Same story that will come later)
Another thought, I’ve worn a size M in tops, forever. Now a M is tight on me and I hate tight clothes!
I’m in such denial that where I volunteer, new t shirts came in and I held up a M and said,
“wow, these run small.” Duh, did it occur to me that they really didn’t, I’m just not that size anymore!