It’s been awhile since I’ve written about my health. There’s a lot going on, different doctor’s appointments weekly. When I was in the hospital they did a chest scan and found a small growth in my left lung. The Thoracic surgeon made an appointment for three months at which time he would do another chest scan. In the meantime my Primary physician wanted me to see a Pulmonologist, Dr. Alice Herlihy. She didn’t want me to wait and ordered a Pet scan. She sent me a message through her portal, which I haven’t been able to access, The chest scan from the Thoracic surgeon, Dr. Austin Rogers was cancelled as he saw what he needed to see from the Pet scan and still wanted me to come to my appointment. I went last week and he showed me the Pet scan next to the chest scan taken at the hospital. The growth is still there, hasn’t grown and could not rule out cancer. He went on to say that I should follow what Dr. Herlihy wants to do since she does the biopsies if needed, and that he is a surgeon and at this point is not needed. Why this couldn’t be told over the phone is beyond me. Anyway she changed the appointment I had with her to a telephone appointment, which is fine with me as I spent the longest wait in her office.

Next up, my Physical Therapist, Stephanie Ross. She is the best and I look forward to our sessions. She pushes me in the best possible way and I feel so invigorated when I leave. Unfortunately she is very busy and I’ve had to cancel several sessions because of being sick or being away. She had to cancel too because of vacation. We’re supposed to meet with Pete and my new, (two years old now), Toyota Highlander and new, (again over a year old) motorized wheelchair. She was going to help me figure out a way to get the wheelchair into the vehicle, as all of our efforts have failed. If not, maybe order another wheelchair that I could handle. The weather hasn’t been cool enough to do this or Pete isn’t able to get off of work so I’m waiting.

I am also seeing a Therapist out of my Primary physician’s office. Someone that I can voice my concerns over all the shit that goes through my “full mind.” I find that she has been helpful in having me face truths that I”m aware of but nevertheless keep ignoring or fighting within myself. I tend to see things in black and white and have a hard time seeing other ways. I wonder if that is part of ADHD, or laziness on my part. I’ll have to ask her. Today I rushed to get to our appointment only to be told that I was left a phone message this morning that she had cancelled. Well I never got a message, no phone call. Sometimes I feel that I don’t really need to see her, but I hesitate stopping. It’s hard when I’ve had the best therapist for many years, Toby Green, when I was in NY.