Today was my first day back to Physical Therapy. I told her what had happened to me in the pool and how I can still feel the pain in my left hip. My mistake, I wore a casual sleeveless dress down to my kneess. She had asked me to wear loose clothes and I don’t have any and I don’t like the way I look in shorts. I felt that she could put me on the bike with all the patches on my legs that give me little shocks. Well she didn’t, and put me on the Nustep, which is my favorite but I needed a sheet cause my dress went up and I was on it for 10 minutes. After which she timed me getting up and down from a chair to the walker. This was my best time yet. Next she put in a call to see how the progress on my new wheelchair was going, (no answer)
We started talking and she asked me what I wanted to take away from Physical Therapy. I stated that I wanted to stand up straight. She asked me why and truthfully I couldn’t think of an answer except that I didn’t want to be a hunched over old woman. This opened my eyes that the only reason I wanted to stand up straight is because of looks, I wanted to look normal. She stated the reason for physical therapy is to maintain where my physicality is and hopefully, but not necessarily improve. Again my eyes were opened. I am, after all these years still not accepting my MS. I walk hunched over because of the weakness in my hips and lower back and core. I also wanted to come away with more motivation.
Overall this is very discouraging to me. I guess my problems are more deepseated in my ways of thinking and dealing with this disease.