I have a lot of issues, including but not limited to: Family, my relationship, Multiple Sclerosis, AHAD, Blog, losing weight, chronic pain, etc. The last few days I’ve been thinking about all of them. I know through experience that unless you deal with your issues, figure out a way to solve them or a way to live with them, they will keep on coming up. Over and over and over and over again, driving me crazy. With that said I am going to tackle each one in a separate post, not in the order I listed.
#1 – Blog – I have been writing for three years. In the beginning I was gung ho, like I always am. I called and paid for help for a month, took notes, (that I don’t look at). I have since sputtered along, posting every couple of days or weekly. I am not trying new things, (blocks, AI), because of fear and the unknown. What if everything disappears by pressing the wrong key? Basically I’m writing a post and getting off as soon as possible to go bury my brain in computer games for a few hours. Why? AHAD? overwhelmed? It is all of it, but I’m not trying. I need to concentrate. All day everyday, there I things I want to write, I tell myself I’ll do it later and I never do. A few days go by and now I’ll figure its too late, on to something else.
So from now on I am going to try not to bury my brain and I will spend the time I need improving my writing. I want to start adding Pages. I will start with my Background story: growing up, my family, how I was raised. I will have a new page, Chapter, for every person in my immediate family; mother, father, sister and brother. I will have a Page on Friends throughout my lifetime, adventures I had. There will be chapters on specfiic friends, Cheryl, Mary Ellen, Shelly, Cheryl, Sharon, Margaret, Paulette, Cat and Stevie. There will be a Page titled Men, an overvue from first boyfriends and funny and scary dating stories, one night stands. There will be specific chapters about the serious relationships I’ve had with Joey, Paul, Bryan, Eric, Swanny, Johnny, John, Tom and another Tom, and lastely Peter. Also Pages on jobs and education. There will be chapters on my divorce from Bryan and getting an annulment in the Catholic church so I can marry Pete, (his family’s request).
When I am done with that, or probably before, I am going to redo the title page, call for more help in doing this and setting up an index. I am determined to stick with it. Then can I play games?