I’m sticking to this theme because I continue to have no focus. In my head I have tons of subjects I want to cover in this blog. Some of them I write down, never to visit again because it is written down, therefore I have an endless amount of time to cover it. Others are whipping through my brain thinking , okay I’ll write about this. Then reality sets in and I sit down at my laptop, like I did yesterday, and almost did today, and do nothing because I am overwhelmed, (I buried my brain playing Mahjong).
Next comes doubt, that nothing I write is relevant, or worse yet, that my musings don’t delve deep enough into the subject, because of my laziness, ADHD, or feelings of being overwhelmed, (I think it is the latter).
Now I’m into questioning my feelings. Can I just state how I feel without researching it or finding ways to validate how I feel? That I now find is the real reason. I want to state how I feel without any repercussions, (not that anyone is reading this).
This is the conundrum I’m facing. Needless to say, believe it or not, I am feeling better. I’m fighting the urge to exit and start playing games again so I don’t have to think. The urge won, and until next time.