Today for some reason I’ve snapped out of it. Yesterday I couldn’t bring myself to do anything. The issues that have kept me down are still there. I was so defeated the other day by writing that I just couldn’t address anything else. It all comes down to laziness on my part. I don’t know…

This is how I would describe myself the past few days. I have a lot on my mind, (what else is new) but I also have no motivation to accomplish anything. I’m feeling lonely and very confused , I’m doubting myself and my feelings. By that I mean feeling justified on how I feel about…

“I’ve got sunshine on a cloudy day When it’s cold outside I’ve got the month of May I’d guess you’d say What can make me feel this way My girl, talkin’ about my girl” The Temptations This is the song I would sing to Maggie every day. As I am writing this, the tears are…

Today is the day the rest of my family is coming! My son, his lady, her 15 year old daughter, my 9 month old granddaughter, and my 16 year old grandson! The jerk chicken has been marinating for 2 days, I cut up all the vegetables this morning and just have to make my healthy…

In my last post I discussed the death of my best friend in high school, Helen. I left out a very important story. After I graduated high school, we both decided to join the armed forces. I wanted to join the Air Force, (I always wanted to fly). We couldn’t join the Air Force together…

I recently found out that my very best friend from high school just died, heard it was cancer but no specifics. Her name was Helen and she was my first friend that I made when we moved to this new school district, starting high school. I don’t remember what brought us together but we were…

After all the pride and accolades I had given myself the other day, Maggie’s caretaking has gone straight downhill. Since then she falls constantly. I have to help her do the little step out the sliding doors to get on the deck. Sometimes she falls just after doing this. My metal walker isn’t strong enough…

This morning I heard Maggie clicking around about 4:30. I ignored her and she went back to bed. I ended up waking up around 6. My hips were aching so bad, this happens a lot. I haven’t followed up with the endocrinologist. He had wanted to start me on Prolia, an injection, every six months.…

Woke up this morning to about 4 inches of snow, very pretty. Right now I am very grateful for my husband. He had one cup of coffee and headed outside with Maggie. Immediately he started shoveling driveway, deck, walkways and cleaned off all of the vehicles! It is now 12:45 and he is snowblowing our…

I’ve been on an emotional roller coaster for a few days now. I have an urge to talk to my sister, which I never have. I’m feeling ambivalent about my husband going away, being able to take care of Maggie, and my adult kids coming to stay. I have also been home alone a lot.…