It has been a little over a week since I’ve written. We went down to N. Carolina to find a builder for my dream home and then onto S. Carolina to visit with friends. I would like to write while I’m gone but I don’t want to bring my laptop. I could write passages in…

I am busy today trying to get my shit together to pack, do laundry, and clean up as I go along. That includes trying some pants on because I have gained so much weight. Thank God the two pairs I want to take fit, tight, but they fit. I also took a shower so right…

We have property in N. Carolina, Wilmington, to be exact. I alone had bought this property in 2008 in, at that time, a new development, Brunswick Forest. Here it is 13 years later and when we got married, I put the property in both of our names, no big deal. I have had a particular…

I haven’t addressed what’s going on as far as my MS daily struggles in awhile. I guess that is good because I have constantly had it drilled in me that, “I am so much more than my MS,” and better yet, “MS does not define me.” I have actually learned something by writing in this…

Today for some reason I’ve snapped out of it. Yesterday I couldn’t bring myself to do anything. The issues that have kept me down are still there. I was so defeated the other day by writing that I just couldn’t address anything else. It all comes down to laziness on my part. I don’t know…

This is how I would describe myself the past few days. I have a lot on my mind, (what else is new) but I also have no motivation to accomplish anything. I’m feeling lonely and very confused , I’m doubting myself and my feelings. By that I mean feeling justified on how I feel about…

“I’ve got sunshine on a cloudy day When it’s cold outside I’ve got the month of May I’d guess you’d say What can make me feel this way My girl, talkin’ about my girl” The Temptations This is the song I would sing to Maggie every day. As I am writing this, the tears are…

Today is the day the rest of my family is coming! My son, his lady, her 15 year old daughter, my 9 month old granddaughter, and my 16 year old grandson! The jerk chicken has been marinating for 2 days, I cut up all the vegetables this morning and just have to make my healthy…

In my last post I discussed the death of my best friend in high school, Helen. I left out a very important story. After I graduated high school, we both decided to join the armed forces. I wanted to join the Air Force, (I always wanted to fly). We couldn’t join the Air Force together…

I recently found out that my very best friend from high school just died, heard it was cancer but no specifics. Her name was Helen and she was my first friend that I made when we moved to this new school district, starting high school. I don’t remember what brought us together but we were…