5/12
Decisions, decisions…..when you have MS, every day there are a lot to make. Usually it starts the night before. I watch the weather and make my decision accordingly. If it is a nice day, between 57 to 75 degrees, then I want to work outside in the garden. Of course that will depend on how I feel when I wake up. Yesterday I woke up and felt like I could go right back to bed. I didn’t. The weather was perfect and I forced myself to go and get some weeding done. I was outside from 10:30 till 1:15. I didn’t get as much done as I would have liked, but at least it was something. I ate lunch, watched a little tv and as much as it killed me to sleep on a gorgeous day, went to lay down at 2:30. Didn’t get up till 6. All the while dealing with a major toothache for the past week. Thursday I’m scheduled for a root canal. I have prescription Motrin 800 mg., Hydrocodone too. Nothing works. I’m not big on taking pills, I feel I take enough of them for the MS. I have been taking the pain pills to no avail.
Back to decisions. Today is a shower day, (no I don’t take one every day, and I wash my hair only 2x a week). I take a very long shower, plus preparing. You can’t just jump into the shower.
Then there’s a whole ritual when I get out, which includes moisturizing my whole body, brushing, flossing teeth, and conditioning, combing out hair. It is exhausting! All the while I’m planning out the rest of the day. After shower I have to sit for awhile to rest, which is what I’m doing now. I wait for my hair to dry because using the blow dryer is also exhausting. The weather is perfect for gardening but I won’t get out till later.
Things I want to do but will put aside so I can work outside. I need to cook dinner. I haven’t been because of my toothache and not being able to eat a lot of food. There are vegetables in fridge that need to be cooked and I feel guilty for not cooking. If I were to cook, I couldn’t go outside, I can’t do both, again too exhausting. I have a library book I need to finish before due date, yet reading makes my eyes close. I also need to call Blue Note and pay $99 so they can assist me in setting up this blog.
So this afternoon I’ll be outside in my happy place. I’ll listen to the birds and talk to them and feel gratitude for the beautiful blue sky and the wonder of seeing the flowers bloom and the others come up for their time to bloom. Gardening allows me to live in the moment and appreciate the natural surroundings.