Still at the same Marriott Courtyard. Since I last posted, the long distance from parking to our room, we decided that I would sit on my walker and Pete would push me, I had quickly decided against using the wheelchair because it wouldn’t fit into the room. Anyway we’ve done this a lot when I’m too tired or have to pee really bad. You’re not suposed to do it and it is written on a sticker on the walker not to. Anyway I am sitting facing him with my legs up and he is pushing me down the hall. We come to a lip (?, change from carpeting to flooring) and the walker tips backward down to the floor with him falling foward on top of me.
It seemed to happen in slow motion. I put my elbows down, (instinctively, I guess) to stop my fall and my head did not hit the hard ground. A very nice woman employee was so fast that she caught my head. I was shook up hoping I didn’t break anything because of having osteopsorosis. I laid there a minute to get my bearings and, thank God, I didn’t break anything. Another male employee and Pete helped me up. The employees were asking if I was okay, at which point Pete said I was, he had landed on top of me, noticed his finger was bleeding, (a tiny bit) went back down the hall to the room to get himself a bandaid. I’m sorry, I wasn’t up for even a minute and he disappeared to get his bandaid. The employees stayed with me until he came back.
I have written before about his lack of empathy and his impatience in his expectations of what I can or cannot do. If you know me at all, I am always pushing myself, I’m not a slacker. If I am slacking, I am giving up based on his attitude, I will “bury my brain” playing computer games so I don’t have to think about his indifference and get mad and start fighting.
We did not get along at all during this trip down to N. Carolina. I told him that we operate on a different wave length, he doesn’t understand what I’m saying and I don’t understand his mindset of work, work, work. That’s all he’s done since I met him and now with the new house, its no different, (not that I expected it would be).
This fall was not the typical “MS fall,” where I miscalculated or lost my balance. I will attribute it to stupidity and lack of paying attention. I won’t stop sitting on the walker and being pushed. We’ve done it for years and it helps me when I’m tired.