I’ve been trying to be outside in the garden with this cooler weather but I get so frustrated. Lately I haven’t been able to do 3 hours, which I’m happy with. The fatigue is overwhelming. When I volunteer at the garden shop, I’m in my wheelchair and it is 4 hours. I have been coming home exhausted. I’ve been sleeping every afternoon. I look at that as a failure. I don’t want to spend my afternoons in bed!
My husbands been home all week so we’ve been trying to get some jobs done. We have been successful, (actually he has, I do very little). This also frustrates me since I can’t help as much as I would like to. I cooked a very good Thanksgiving dinner and was happy with how it worked out.
Everything I do, my eyes are closing. I’m reading a book on the iPad and I get a few pages in and my eyes hurt and start shutting. I used to be able to sit down and read for hours. We went Christmas shopping the other night. I had 1 1/2 hours to myself in Macy’s. I was in the babies department and everything I wanted they didn’t have in her size. I went upstairs to make an even exchange on a pair of Levi’s I bought 2 years ago, still had all tickets on them, never worn, needed to get a size 10,instead of an 8. That took an hour. I was so tired by the end of it all I just wanted to go home.
When I entered Macy’s I was in the holiday dress department. OMG, I love, love, love the beautiful dresses and it takes me back to when I would buy them and wear whatever I wanted. Last year when I entered Macy’s, it was the shoe department. They had all their sparkly gorgeous high heels out. I took pictures and posted on facebook on how I was having major shoe envy. This makes me very sad, I again mourn the loss of another fun part of my life. Another year I entered the shoe department and it was all boots! Every pair was 50 – 60% off! Well that year I didn’t get any further than that! I was able to get myself a beautiful pair of knee high flat black suede boots!
As always it comes to choices, do I do the exercise bike or go outside, Do I shower and then wait for the afternoon to do things, or usually by the afternoon I’m too tired to do anything.
I have to speak to my doctor about what I can do to battle fatigue. I’ve read that exercise helps, but it only makes me more tired. Do I give in to it and accept my limitations? If you know anything about me, I’m not good at accepting any limitations. Does anyone else have this much fatigue, and if you do, how do you deal with it? I’ll take any help I can get.