So much is going on in this brain. Right now:
- Son and girlfriend broke up – This has been keeping me awake at night. My little granddaughter, not even 1 1/2. She moved out and my son is beside himself. The main reason being that his home is only a one bedroom home. She has a 15 year old daughter and a so who is away at school but comes home at different times. I do understand her wanting extra rooms for all the kids. We all want him to get a bigger home. She did know this when she moved in. He is not in a position to move. He would like to fix up the home before he puts it on the market and although he can get top dollar right now, (with the real estate market), he would also have to spend more to get a new home. He ias not against moving, just not right now. Another issue is money. He has it, she doesn’t. She is heavily in debt and is not working or trying to get a job, not very good for applying for a loan. Now more than ever I want to be in NY. I could help with the baby and just be there. She is surrounded by her family and he has no one up there. Should I abandon house in NC and buy a small home in NY? I am resenting P more and more for bringing me down here There are more issues and it all keeps going round and round in my head.
- Loneliness – This weekend the Christmas Craftsmen Classic is coming back to the Raceway. We’ve always gone and will pick up some Christmas presents. P comes back late this afternoon and it will be too late to go. I asked a “friend” at the garden and she was already going with a group of her friends. My neighbor came over on Friday to catch up and I asked her if she wanted to go and she already had plans to go with her daughter. Oh Well. It has made me sad. I can go by myself, there is a way to get there where I don’t have to go on the highway. I’m feeling down and depressed and don’t want to go alone. There was also a Volunteer Appreciation Dinner at the garden last Monday night and I didn’t go because I can’t see at night to save my life; People were asking if I was going and I said, no, I don’t drive at night. No one offered to pick me up and you know I won’t ask! I figure that by saying I can’t see driving at night that it is a big enough opening to offer to give me a ride, again feeling of loneliness. It is overwhelming and debilitating.
- Blog – Still confusing. I need to learn how to add things. I tried on my own today and it didn’t work. I need to change the Menu page, add another category, add pages and background. I will call and sign up for private instruction but I don’t want to pay the money right now because I won’t be around for the whole month. I lost a menu that pops up on the left side which makes it easy to go in and edit and I can’t find how to bring it back.