President’s Day weekend we decided to go to our new home in NC. We left Friday after I got home from the garden. I have to say it is very nice not having to stay at a hotel anymore. Our plan was to go buy a washer and dryer, get some curtain rods and hang the curtains, and to go to the Toyota dealer down there to check on a vehicle that would be coming in that met our qualifications and perhaps buy a dining set or a new bed. Saturday we got up and right away started to argue. I was going over where I wanted the safety bars to go in the shower. He was telling me where he thinks they should go. Excuse me, I was trying to tell him where I needed them to go to help me feel safe and shower independently. From there it just escalated.
I know he doesn’t get me, that has already been established and is always a matter of contention with me. This trip really put it front and center once again. This time I was highly agitated and felt I couldn’t deal with it anymore. I actually screamed that we are over. I wanted to sell the house and I was filing for divorce. I could no longer live with someone who was so clueless about every essence of my being. I’m not even talking about no sex for 15 years or not even any compassion or showing of any emotion or outward physical connection, not so much as a hug or caress. Nothing.
Everything calmed down and next thing I know we were in the truck heading to Lowes’s. Fight ignored, (just as much my fault as his). The washer we wanted wasn’t in stock and they couldn’t get it, (why the hell is it even advertised). We bought curtain rods, had to go to another Lowe’s to get 2 of them. Went to furniture warehouse to look for dining table and/or sofa we could agree on. No such luck.
The last place was the Toyota dealer. Of course the vehicle they called us up about was already gone, it was gone before we even got the phone call it was coming. But guess what, another one would be coming in March and it already had all these extras we didn’t want, but again who knows when we could get the vehicle we wanted. Pete proceeded to wheel and deal, (he loves this and I hate it). Needless to say we were there the entire afternoon and ended up buying the vehicle. For clarification I wanted a white Toyota Hilander Grand Limited Hybrid. They are in very short supply and you have to pay almosr 500 extra for a white vehicle. Its consdiered a “special color.”
Anyway, back to the title of this post, “Selling my soul”. So much for my latest threat, I’m getting a new SUV.