The other day I said I was going to see if I slept better with no TV in the bedroom. I did one night and therefore I was hoping it would continue. Alas, it did not. The one night was it. That night I was awake most of the night and when I came home from volunteering, I laid down thinking I could sleep. No again. Then last night I stayed awake till midnight and wasn’t really tired but went to bed. I proceeded to stay wide awake all night. I thought of getting up to read, (that is what is suggested) but my eyes hurt so I just kept them closed. I might have gotten maybe an hour of sleep in the morning but then at 7 am the house alarm went off, (it was nothing).
So much for that. I don’t know why I’m staying awake. I am taking my stay awake pill, Methylphenidate, earlier around 1:30 pm and I’m having my daily cappuccino two hours earlier than I was. I want to try and nap this afternoon but my husband is home again and I need to shop for food. I was anxious about my sons family flying to Florida, thinking if they crashed both my grandchildren and son would die. See how this mind works. It’s horrible to think that way. I recited the Serenity Prayer, which is my go to when my thoughts are out of control. I need to somehow stop this brain and the negativity it is spewing forth. By the way, they arrived safely!
On another note, being that my husband is now home, the coffee maker still doesn’t work and either does the TV in the bedroom. The pond is fixed and operating. I’m tired and have one more post to write.