Breaking Habits

“Old Habits Die Hard”– There is a reason that old adage exists: Truth. I am having a very hard time breaking some, if not most of my daily habits.

First thing in the morning, I get out of bed between 7 and 7:30 am, even if I’m still tired. I am a morning person, most of my energy occurs at that time and I usually wake up in a good mood, positive that a new day will bring new opportunities. I plan that my coffee will be ready and I start by turning on the TV, The Today Show. I dole out my pills for the day into my pill box and take the morning dose of Baclofen 20 mg., 2 tabs and 1 capsule of Trospium Chloride ER 60 mg., (to help with not peeing so much). I sit down and have coffee, (2 cups with 1 Tblsp 1/2 & 1/2 in each cup) read the paper or magazines, and watch TV. I’ll do this till 8:30 when I’ll go into the kitchen and eat breakfast, the same thing every day, (Multigrain Cheerios with blueberries and unsweetened almond milk, eating probably 1/2 pint of blueberries or raspberries. Then I shower or get dressed or both. Every single day!

Lately I lie in bed thinking I would like to get up and put the DVD of chair yoga in to start my mornings. My reason for not doing this is because I would have to throw on sweat pants and a shirt instead of my robe and that would mean getting dressed twice for the day. It would also mean I would miss the beginning of The Today Show and more importantly , what’s going on in the world. This is repeated every 1/2 hour throughout The Today Show‘s 4 hour span, so realistically I wouldn’t miss anything by watching a little later.

I would also like to get back to riding my exercise bike. This is also time related. I need to be on by 10:00, the latest, 10:30. while still watching The Today Show. If I can’t make those times, I will not ride the bike. The next time, from 11 to 12, I do dishes or any chopping of vegetables or marinating of meat for that evenings dinner. I figure this way I’m not too tired come 4 or 5 o’clock when I have no energy.

Come noon, I like to be on my laptop writing in this blog. Again, very time sensitive. If I don’t get to write then, I will not write the rest of the day or not until I can be on the blog by noon. I allow myself only an hour for this. I don’t know why, there is so much I need to do for this blog that I don’t do. When I’ve had enough I’ll sign out and start burying my mind playing Mahjong on the laptop until 1:30/2:00.

Lunchtime. Same thing every single day. One Dannon yogurt, (80 calories), vanilla, strawberry, strawberry/banana only with fresh strawberries, an apple and a 100 calorie granola bar. If I’m really hungry, and know I’m not cooking dinner, I’ll skip the granola bar and eat baby carrots with a whole container of Lantana Sriracha Carrot Hummus, (I’m addicted). While I’m eating lunch I watch my two soap operas, The Young and the Restless, and The Bold and the Beautiful. After that, I am tired.

Now between 3 and 5;30 is my tough time. I could probably nap but I usually fight it and will zone out playing games on my iPad. If the weather is nice I will go outside and garden or sometimes I’ll plan a phone call or flat iron my hair, do laundry, or work on whatever crafts I have going on.

Evening comes and I have to start the TV at 6:30 watching World News with Lester Holt, or lately with David Muir. I changed because of watching The Today Show, I know what’s going on there. From there I go into Wheel of Fortune, Jeopardy and my regular viewing habits for whatever day of the week it is. From 10 to 11:00 I’ll read whatever book I’m reading and watch the news. Bedtime is anywhere between 11 and 12., always watching Friends.

Next day the same exact thing except for Wednesday and Friday from 10 – 2, I volunteer at the garden. If I go to the movies or out to lunch, (very rarely), it throws me out of whack and I panic that I won’t have enough time to stick to my schedules. I’ve always been like this, I don’t know why.