“In My Own Little Corner…….

” In my own little corner, in my own little chair, I can be whoever I want to be”

This line is from a song in the movie, “Cinderella”, released sometime in the 60’s, the one starring Leslie Ann Warren. This verse has stayed in my mind all these years. I’m guessing it’s the escape aspect, withdrawing into myself (as most Cancer crabs do), when the outside world is too much. In this case it is about missing comforts that only being in my home can give me.

Towards the end of our trip to NY, I began to sing this within myself and as much as I don’t like living in VA, I wanted to go home. As much as I wanted to be around my son and granddaughter, I wanted to go home. Here is where I am comfortable, I can get in and out of my house without steps. I can shower on my own, watch what I want on TV, and cook, clean and take care of my home, as much as I can. I have safety bars that I can lean on getting in and out of the shower and up and down off the toilet. I have my faithful 10X mirror that I can spend an hour cleaning teeth, tweezing, and applying makeup.

While I’m away, it bothers me that I am unable to contribute to any barbeques or get togethers. I am unable to cook or make some dishes because everyone tells me that I don’t have to and to relax. This is what makes me happy, I need to feel useful. When I’m home I do feel useful, and I get a sense of accomplishment. I feel very frustrated. This is the reason I want to come home.