This has been a tough week. I can’t fight the feeling of being in limbo. I’m finding it hard to have any direction, I’m feeling defeated and lazy because I have no motivation to get anything done. There are things for me to do that I talk myself out of. I don’t want to be bothered. I want to feel that I have a purpose but right now I don’t. I find myself just sitting around playing games on my iPad. I call it “burying my brain.”
The things I need to accomplish:
- I need to email my sister-in-law to get a picture of P when he was a teenager
- I need to make invitations using picture to a surprise 60th birthday party that I am giving him
- I need to download tons of pics from my phone and resize them so I can use in this blog.
- I need to sign up for a month of help, ($99) from Bluehost to get better at this blogging thing.
- I need to do multiple “pages” delving into my background as far as; Family, Friends, and Men
- I need to start making Christmas wreaths, (tons of supplies just sitting in the closet)
- I need to clean the stainless on the stove and refrigerator and the bathroom sinks
I am so overwhelmed by all of it. Is it ADHD or depression or maybe its both. All I know is that I want to snap out of it. I want to focus. I just stare at the chores I need to do and not do anything. Then of course I feel lazy. It is a cycle. I will get out of it, I always seem too.
This too shall pass